Well it is still raining. We had a little bit of thunder and lightning last night with some wind but nothing of the magnitude on Tuesday night. Having my front roof lifted and blown off, now the front door is leaking a bit but I think that we are going to recover the veranda this weekend.
I awoke this morning with a new spurt of energy. I have started my fresh home made tomato soup, got my chocolate peppermint mocha, stoked the fire, did my stretches/exercises and I am getting my blog done so that I can focus on my school work. I am committing myself to this regimen each and every week day with a break on the week ends only. I have so much I want to accomplish for myself and I do not want to fail. Have you ever had a goal and you know it is important to you but you just can't seem to make it happen? Well I have at least one of those and I struggle with it everyday!!! I want to loose weight, get in shape, feel better, look better, wear anything I want!!!! I have always wanted these things for myself and I just can't seem to make it happen. I am not sure exactly what the problem is but I am going for the gusto again and hope that this time I accomplish what it is I am seeking. Help!!!! I realize that what I eat is a big part of my failure and sometimes my carbohydrate cravings seem so unreasonable, out of control actually. They seem to be the one thing that satisfies me. I do not get the relief from hunger from anything else like I do with the carbs. Humph, What is up with that? Habit? Well I am back on my "SparkPeople" site charting what I eat and taking note of the calories and being sure to eat a balanced diet. Fruit, vegetables, grains, dairy you know the pyramid thing. I know I can't forget the exercise either. I know how easy it is to just sit around and be relaxed, (lazy?) eat and get fatter. I am not happy that way. I love to relax. I love to eat good food but I do not like the weight gain. That is no fun when you go to get dressed and your clothes are tight and you definitely do not want to buy bigger clothes!!! Especially when you have a closet full of nice clothes and you want to get smaller not bigger. Well onward and upward. Try, try again I shall. My boyfriend is an inspiration to me. He decided to loose the weight and get in shape and he did it. I am going to do it too and he helps me. It is so much easier when he is around. We both eat really clean and generally do not over eat. So wish me luck and lots of commitment. See you all tomorrow.